Hang in there, baby

This past week has been so not the mama. I've been sick since last Wednesday and am still feeling pretty crummy. It's hard to get well when you have to work 10 hours a day almost everyday. Ugh. Everyone at my work has been sick too and I think we're all just passing our germs around. On top of that my mom fell down for the second time this month and that's been really stressful. She's getting x-rays today but I'm pretty sure she's broken something since she hasn't been able to get up on her own at all since she fell. So I've been filling in as her nursemaid and it's been really hard on me both physically and mentally. I never thought this would happen. That my mother who was once so strong and vivacious would become so fragile and delicate at only 62 years old. To be honest, I don't really know if she's going to be around one day to the next. I do appreciate that my family allowed me to come back home after things didn't work out in Seattle but I also think that my dad has been using me as a free caregiver for the past 2 years. I've had to take my mom to the ER several times since I got back to Arizona and to be honest, if I hadn't come home I don't think she'd still be with us. I'm glad I was there to help her but at the same time it's taking its toll on me.

My mom is always on my back about why haven't I found a husband blah blah blah but how am I supposed to date anyone when I work 50 hours a week and have to care for my elderly mother? I just don't have the time and men don't seem to be too enthused about dating someone in my "situation" anyway--so I've found out. My current life plan has been to stay with my folks for one more year so I can have a sizeable amount of money saved up to put towards my first home but with everything that's been going on this month, I'm wondering if I can handle living with my family much longer. It's putting me in a cruddy situation too because I really don't want to have a roommate again but I don't have enough saved up right now to live by myself if I were to move out in the next few months.

Some positive things, though, my business has been BOOMING lately. Booming a bit too much, haha. It's weird but as soon as I accepted the full time position at my day job I started to get flooded with orders. I absolutely love making hoops for people and my customers have been lovely but I haven't been able to take a day off in weeks. At least my vacation is almost here and I can just relax and not worry about everything going on at home. I've also decided not to take on any more custom orders next month since I want to have lots of new work prepared for my art show in March. I'm pretty excited about that and I think it'll be great for me to meet other artists and do some networking (and possibly meet someone cute!)

Well, if you have any good vibes you could spare, I'd really appreciate it. I have to get well in the next few days so I can be healthy for Thailand and I need my mom to be alright so I'm not just worrying about her the whole time I'm gone.

Thank you!

(And here's some new art to tide you over until I return)

Ice King Embroidery $45.00

Guy Farting Embroidery (SOLD)

Pikachu Embroidery (SOLD)

BMO Embroidery (SOLD)


 

TREAT YO SELF

Aziz!

This past Friday I went to see my favorite comedian, Aziz Ansari, at Celebrity Theatre and it was AMAZING! I went with two of my bestest friends, Rosalynn and Ian, and we were lucky enough to get seats in the front row. I'd never been in the front row for anything so this was a pretty big deal. We were so close that the stage was literally an inch from my knees--it was UNREAL!

We got there a little late because parking was a nightmare so we missed most of the opening act but we weren't familiar with the dude who opened anyway so nbd. Since I didn't want to get busted for sneaking in a camera (there was a giant sign outside saying NO CAMERA. NO VIDEO. NO AUDIO.) I didn't get any pictures but that's okay because the experience will live in my memory for a very long time. As soon as Aziz came on stage he asked everyone to take their photos now and get it out of their system so then we could all enjoy the rest of the show without any distractions. He kept moving a lot, though, so everybody's pics came out pretty blurry. Rosalynn took this one here:

Aziz is such an entertainer! Once he got started he never slowed down (and it was all brand new material too!) I love how animated his style is and how he interacts with the audience so much. Being right in the front row I was so nervous he was going to talk to me since he kept looking directly at me when he was talking. I did kind of stand out, though. Since I didn't get to go out on New Year's Eve and had bought a super fancy cocktail dress for the occasion, I figured I'd wear it to this show. Aziz always looks very sharp when he performs so I thought he'd be okay with his audience looking fancy too. However, it didn't really occur to me that they'd be shining lights on me throughout the entire show and my green sequined dress would wind up blinding everyone. Whoops! What was more distracting than my dress, though, was the hottie in the row across from me. This boy was red hot like pizza supper AND I found out from the questions Aziz asked everyone that this dude was A.) single B.) vegetarian C.) a feminist. Can you believe that? UGH! Why couldn't he have been sitting next to me? The Universe can be so cruel. He smiled at me a few times so I was hoping he'd try to find me after the show but as soon as the show ended everyone made a mad dash for the exit and I lost him. Oh, wellz...



Mermaid Dress (Forever 21)

Saturday was a fun day too. I got to see my honey, Michelle, and have a girl's night out. I'm so excited for our Thailand trip (19 days and counting) since Michelle is a guaranteed good time. I always have maximum amounts of fun whenever I see her. First we went to this dive bar Rips but there were only like, 4 cars in the parking lot and it was super early (like 6:30) so we decided to go to Target to kill some time. While at Target we shared some menstruation anecdotes and had a grand 'ol time (and made all of the men in the vicinity very uncomfortable--yes!). Afterwards, we decided to go to Crescent Ballroom instead and see if anything was going on. They were having Mexican wrestling that night but the show was completely sold out so we decided to just get tacos since we were already there (their kitchen has the most AMAZING veggie tacos I've ever had).

After dinner we went back to her house and hung out with her doggie, Bella, who I love so so much and watched tv and ate cookies. I ended up leaving around 1am, which is SUPER late for me these days) and the second I walk out of her apartment her next door neighbors bust out of their room and were like, "Hey, what's up? Where u goin?" and I was like, "Ew!" They must've been listening to our entire conversation and been waiting for me to come out of the door. It was totally gross and made me super uncomfortable. Why do dudes have to be so aggressive and clueless? You really think I'm going to be like, "Oh, hey, baby, how you doin?" It's ridiculous. At this rate unless the Universe throws an awesome man at my feet I'm pretty much doomed. But I'm doing pretty great on my own anyway so WHATEVZ.

Anywayz, I hope y'all are having a good Monday! Take care, bbs!